The things people say... or don't!
When you are bereaved you hear it all - The platitudes ...
It's hard, I get that ... I have been on the other side. I have been that person who was too uncomfortable to say anything... terrified of making it worse.
How could anyone make it any worse? - The worse has happened. And they haven't forgotten. You talking about their loved one and even saying their name is not going to suddenly upset them.
For weeks I was numb- For the first first months in fact I did stuff secretly believing that it would be all alright ...when he came home. That was the story I told myself - looking back it was the only way I could process the information.
How could he NOT be coming back?
He was my husband. We were a family - just us two and our cats. He cooked for me and took care of me. He was the one I could talk to and work out what I should do when I didn't know what to do. He was the one I brought a cup of tea to each and every morning- he was the one I came home to.
He was HOME- he was my home. The place where I was safe.
How could he not be coming home?!
Everything would be alright- when he got home.
I remember the day it hit! When reality came home, not P.
It must have been coming to the 3 month marker. I had gone back to school. I was functioning, well to a degree. To fill my weekends I had taken to walking and taken up gardening.
The garden had always been P's domain. I had been very much the apprentice, a reluctant one at that. But I had said that I would look after his plants whilst he was gone. I had told him that when he was in hospital. So I had kept my promise - I looked after the garden. Painted the shed, replaced the fence, planted seeds for flowers and vegetables. I had even mowed the lawn and fed it so that it was lush green.
Then one Saturday, as I was putting the mower away, I was putting the pad-lock back on the shed, except it fell off and landed on the floor.
It broke.
At that, I picked it up and took it inside. I tried to fix it but I couldn't.
I remember thinking:
"It's alright. When he gets home ..." and that's when it hit.
He wasn't coming home.
Not now.
Not soon.
Not ever!
That's when the tears came and I just couldn't stop.
Reality had hit HOME - quite literally!!
- People say stupid things.
- Good people say stupid things.
- Stupid people say stupid things.
- Most people mean the best - they just don't know how to be.
- Grief is not a journey with a destination - it's a new reality.
- Grief changes aspects of you.
- If you are grieving, don't judge people on what they say - but on what they do.
- If you are grieving, don't expect that you will get over it - you are not on a journey.
- If you are grieving, you may also be the person who says the wrong thing!
- If you are supporting someone who is grieving - allow them to feel their pain. "It is shit! It shouldn't have happened. "
- Validate their pain - Don't reduce it by trying to say some to distract or be positive. The pain of the loss needs acknowledging and validating.
- Don't say "If you need anything let me know." - The grief- brain can not process what is needed - A good friend of mine texted me to say "I am coming over. I will be on your doorstep at 2:30pm and if you open the door that's fine- if you don't that's fine too." I found this helpful. (That's all she could do at that point as we were in full lockdown)
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